Home, by Warsan Shire
no one leaves home unless
home is the mouth of a shark
you only run for the border
when you see the whole city running as well
your neighbours running faster than you
breath bloody in their throats
the boy you went to school with
who kissed you dizzy behind the old tin factory
is
holding a gun bigger than his body
you only leave home
when home won't let you stay.
no one would leave home unless home chases you
fire under feet
hot blood in your belly
it's not something you ever thought about doing
and so when you did
you carried the anthem under
your breath
waiting until the airport toilet
to tear up the passport and swallow
each mouthful of paper
making it clear that you would not be going back.
you have to understand
no one puts their children in a boat
unless the water is safer than the land.
who would choose to spend days and nights in the stomach of a truck
unless the miles travelled
meant something more than journey.
no one would choose to
crawl under fences
be beaten until your
shadow leaves you
raped, then drowned, forced to the bottom of
the boat
because you are darker, be sold,
starved, shot at the border like a sick animal,
be pitied, lose your name, lose your family,
make a refugee camp a home for a year or two or ten,
stripped and searched, find prison everywhere
and if you survive
and you are greeted on the other side
with
go home blacks, refugees
dirty immigrants, asylum seekers
sucking our country dry of milk,
dark, with their hands out
smell strange, savage -
look what they've done to their own countries,
what will they do to ours?
the dirty looks in the street
softer than a limb torn off,
the indignity of everyday life
more tender than fourteen men who
look like your father, between
your legs, insults easier to swallow
than rubble, than your child's body
in pieces - for now, forget about pride
your survival is more important.
i want to go home,
but home is the mouth of a shark
home is the barrel of the gun
and no one would leave home
unless home chased you to the shore
unless home tells you to
leave what you could not behind,
even if it was human.
no one leaves home until home
is a damp voice in your ear
saying
leave, run now, i don't know what
i've become.
Listen to Canadian actor Yanna McIntosh read the poem on CBC Radio
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